hmmmm

I just read Pastor jerry's E-Musings for the first time today.........very amazing. please check them out at www.jerrygillis.com. And no, he didn't tell me to do that!


so i'm reading cs lewis's auto-bio(as he says, but its sort of not as we know cs goes on tangents). its called "surprised by joy" and the title intrigued me first, well, i guess CS intrigued me first then the title, as we all know cs is great. So me and C-S have a lot in common.

a few commonolaties from his bio:

-He felt england to be cold upon arrival and very harsh feeling;
-He often will think of a memory of a memory but realises that he isn't desiring what is in the memory in terms of the tangible items; ...for example, today i was listening to bing crosby's "white christmas".......(yis, i'm crazy)! , and i didn't want the christmas tree, or the snow, but simply the mere longing for the memory i have associated with past christmas's which i realise can't be duplicated, therefore, i settle for longing for the memory/JOY again.........
-He realises that feelings of pure dissatisfaction allowed him to realise things about life; one being not to trust and put emphasis and meaning to his feelings for then you may end up living in that depression way too long.

So, there is more, but its a real great start to the book, as i didn't know much about C-S's bio before.

so i went to the notting hill festival today and; to give you an idea--my friend and i wanted to leave after about 2 hours as we felt we'd seen it all (food, beer, LOUD caribeean/jamaican music,).....oh, and after inhaling all the weed that was around us, we ended up not ebing able to get to the tube station until about 1 hour and a half after wanting to leave as most tubes were closed----and to top it all off, a jamaican man grabbed me ina crowd and started to grind on me. i think i'm scarred for life from that.........yuk yuk yuk.

well i'm trying to find more meaning in this london; trying to feel more at home, though realising i may never feel more at home.....


will keep you all posted,
love ambs