the bruising of life will soon fade....

lately i've been thinking about this concept of bruising....here me out. i'll try to explain my thoughts that i haven't really processed completely!

so you get a bruise. for me, i sometimes get one if i simply have someone touch me too hard, or merely rub up against something. some of us bruise more easily than others. i'm also talking about emotional bruising.

so the bruise turns green for some, if your lucky. if you've really managed to get wounded a bit then it turns purple---and if you have managed to encounter something that has struck you intensely---your bruise will be black as we all know. and with that,comes swelling of course--more swelling depending on the colour of the bruise. the darker the colour--the worse off you are with swelling.

so what does this all mean? i guess i just found it neat to start, that the more intense we are bruised---the more deep and dark the colour is. it can almost seem as if the colour will never fade(for those of you who have seen someone with severe bruising; someone who was beaten up by their partner, someone who had a freak horrible accident, etc.) black is a pretty depressing state of mind to be living in; as the colour itself is something i like to wear (can't go wrong with skinny black trousers/jeans). since i believe strongly that God has made analogies in life with many things; since i believe Him to be the creator of life and all that is here; its wonderful to extract little nooks and bobs from different concepts and things that are in the world, and to think how cool God is for making them connect to one's soul.

hang with me...

so the darker the bruise; the more swelling there is. its almost like the darker the pain; the more it hurts. the more it stays with us. darker bruising always takes longer to heal, but it does. so, think of it in the deepest emotional level.....bruising on the inside of ourselves is intensely swelled for many of us. its black in there. its quite ugly and it seems to not heal. it seems to only flare up and get worse. sure, sometimes, its alright. we'll kid ourselves some days, depending on our feelings, and say that we're doing fine. but in the inside, when we're stripped of all that means anything to us, i'd say MANY of us are still bruised. i'm not just talking yellowish/green bruising either, though i'm sure we all carry some of that in our hearts. but MANY of us i would say have the purple/black bruising, which leads us to be swelled and uncomfortable in life. uncomfortable interacting; as we're desperate everyday to heal ourselves; while at the same time; doing it in the complete wrong ways (see my previous post). we'll fill ourselves with what we think will heal us.

again, i'm reminded often that when i think i have everything under control; when i think i've managed to sort myself out; and then when it all comes crashing down; i've learned that Jesus is the only one; being God in human flesh; who can truly heal us of our deepest wounds. i need to remember always; as i fail often; to go to Him; and i can truly say, that i have found peace that passes my understanding when i have done this. it may not come right away; but it does come as we are searching and longing to have God set us free from our past hurts/mistakes/ disappointments, etc. we all have bruising; God can begin to make that black turn to yellow.......