sweetness, fear, and hilarity

so i'm really in transition. ! (more to be said if you know me....)

so i found this really good christian band .......leeland. they have very worshipful/truthful/brilliant lyrics. i'm going to give my housemates each a burned copy of this(ooooh....i'm a sinner!) check them out.

so i came home for christmas. i'm home now. its been good, very good to say the least. yet, i know i must go back to london and live out what God has for me there. it is still in transition in many ways.

can i just randomly say i love my family. ok, thanks. i love my family! i'm so blessed by them. i believe and know God blesses each person in many different ways. i'm thankful that i'm blessed in the way of a tight knit family. we've gotten so much closer over the last year or so. lovely.

so at spot coffee tonite, after our family partay, my sisters and my lovely and beautious cousing charissa went out. we were having some good talks, and sarcastic jokes along the way, when all of a sudden we realised that the couple next to us that was talking(a boy and girl) had quite the predicament going on. this one dude came up my cuz said, and stood behind them, and stared at the gurl and said, " are you ready to go, let's go...you done with your internet date?" "did you meet this guy online?" the gurl, replied "i'm not ready....and maybe i did meet him online". well...........there were words exchanged, and it was very busy tonite at spot, but i got this feeling, and glimpse of something more than just a heated and unusual situation. i could talk forever about people, and how crazy it is the way they act sometimes. but, i was struck more by the fact that i couldn't even imagine a life that would mirror what just happened,......its like we get these glimpses into the lives of others. we see control at its high point, we see insecurity, we see foolishness ..........it just amazed me how silly the whole situation was, and it makes me want to just relax, and chill...and trust God with my life.....instead of trusting myself, and my own efforts. that boy ended up chasing after this gurl as she walked away from her online date. it also makes you realise the cliche.....that yuo can't make someone love you. as hard asyou try. in fact, often the act of forcing or controlling pushes others much farther away. but i suppose we all realise others problems ahead of our own. ironic!

so i hope you enjoyed that twist of events ! it was quite the surreal life to me, as i was watching!

goodness. well a few more interesting things about london before i leave:


-tubes: you can't live with them, can't live without em in london. mid decenmber, it was sad because 2 individuals near my home in london jumped in front of the tube(both different locations), ending their own lives. the one time i was on a tube headed back to my home, and the tube was suspended(not running anymore) due to "someone being under the track at ....." which basically means..they're dead! they have to obviously clean up the body/etc etc. im still fascinated by suicide. it strikes that eerie chord.


- it isn't always rainy! im' so tired of hearing that its always misty or rainy. whatever. its not that bad. it does get light though around 7:30 and dark around 3:30/4pm. but i'm used to it by now, and don't mindit! it is also more sunny than most think it would be in london. or so i've observed so far.

-london is soo fashionable......and yis, this is true. however, you can still get away with dressing down which i was told you couldn't. naturally though, and not even really consciously, i'm just adapting myself to my environment, as i am dressing more proper, and lady-like. i'm slowly growing out of the emo fad........haha.....i was really more artsy for awhile, and i'd still like to continue that......i just am more properly artsy if that makes sense. watch out...it'll be the new trend.

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-london in general it seems doesn't do christmas up like i thought. next year i'd like to spend christmas perhaps(or a few days following up to it!) in a city outside of london where there are cobblestone streets, horse drawn carriages and snow! there are these places in england, and someone mentioned to me about one. its definitely gorgeous!


i'm tired..................long day...............

thanks jesus..........keep trusting Him y'all. my life is so uncertain, yet its so certain with Jesus in my life. i'm thankful that He has made me oh so new, and given me oh so much, when i'm so undeserving.

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much love to you all, and happy new year!

amber