confusion;hurt;lonely;striving;tears

striving to love; i learn i'm vain,
giving to you, and then the sunflower fades.
the petals, forever were never that nice.

you sucked me in, now i'm hurting
you sucked me down, now i'm crying,
and all i was doing was striving to love you.

when i'm trodding on life's narrow road,
the breeze is so deafening, as it cries out a groan
"are you prettier", "are you happier" " are you lovelier than she"
if the answers are no, start again, then proceed
when will this battle be won in my head?
when i'm beautiful, when i'm confident, when i've a ring on my hand?


feel the pressure, as i'm striving, as i'm striving to love.
why am i striving, striving, striving to love?


i'm loving you, only so i'll love me.