running is spiritual and im a princess...

so despite feelings......that sometimes shift moment to moment, underlying i'm wanting to remember two things i'm loving right now--that God is totally showing me.

i've been running a few road races lately,...and the benefit run i did last weekend was for lauren castanza, a gurl who passed away on my birthday about 2 years ago I believe. she was only 22, and well, she had a beautiful testimony. so i decided to run the 3 mile race for her. i honestly hadn't been training/running that much and i thought that would suit me well. as i began running, my bro who ran the race as well said to me "lets do the 10 mile run". in this race there was the option of running 1 mi, 3, 5, and 10. i was taken back since, if you know my brother, know that hes an amazing athelete, but also that hes never trained to run distance like that. and yet he was so determined to do it, because one man he started running with encouraged him to do the 10 miles. it was a sunny beautiful day, and the scenery was lovely-we were on goat island. so i made a decision then and there--i would and could do the 10 miles as well. i planned in my mind to run with my bro and some others during the whole race. there pace wasn't too bad, and they were motivation enough for me. well, soon after i had to tie my shoe(...i think my puppy was playing with it prior..haha....just like the dog ate my..) andbefore i knew it, was running solo. i was used to this, running by myself, i feel it metaphorical to life. just me, myself and God. i began the race at a faster pace, and kept pushing myself. however, i eventually evened out and lost speed as a result of the pressure i had placed on myself. i evened out to exactly the pace i should have been at and even then some because i had pushed myself so hard. what does all this mean? well, i could go on about how i think running is spiritual in many ways, but i'll make a point or two. (because i often get asked, "why do you run,i hate it!") 1--is best not to compare and try to speed up and be at someone else's pace, even if they are 5 seconds faster than you....notthat you can't push yourself a bit, but if you push yourself too hard, and this goes for in life, (meaning if you compare yourself to others), you will eventually even out at where you need to be, not where you THINK or desire to be at that time. you are where you are in the race or in life for a reason, because thats what God knows you are able to handle and where you can be used. 2--i started out the race thinking i wouldn't be able to do the 10 miles. but then someone who hadn't been through running that much decided to doit. and my bro decided because he felt encoruaged by someone else. encouragement is powerful, and running the race of life is amindset, just like running is. we can get a lot farther than what we think---God is on our side, He is desiring to help us and does help us in soo many ways. we can do a lot more in life than we think; sometimes we just need to remember our motivation --and check it...and make sure its set on things above...

i could say a lot more but i'll leave it there for now.

oh ya and i'm a princess. a lot more could be said there--but i'm so embracing and claiming my value as a gurl/woman in God and what He says of me.......and as a gurl i'm also loving that i am able to be super gurlie, and cutsie, ---i'm wanting the fairytale--in whateve way God sees it to work best for me---i'm wanting to have someone special one day treat me like the princess i'm discovering in myself ....right now. i'm a princess; I thank God that He has value for me, that i'm not dependent on others opinions. myhow unfufilling that is. i have a few people in my lifethat i treasure who aren't fully connected to the value i have and who don't see how much of treasure i am......we can't depend on that from others----but i know the onethat created me thinks i'm the cats pajamas......haha....but more than that....a princess of His. and.....with my whole fascination of the british culture---i sure do want to embrace my princessness;) God --allow all of us single gurls who are waiting for the right one you have for us....to truly during this time of waiting know how much youvalue us---and let us EMBRACE that fully.


love you Lord, princess amber;) <3